Again, this whole damn chapter was supposed to be about the aftermath of Simon’s turning, and Clary having to deal with the consequences of her decision. When in reality, this passage proves without a doubt that this is all about Clary and Jace’s drama.
It’s just so nice that Clary is making the oh so important and difficult sacrifice of not answering Jace’s calls or texts. Clary is punishing not only herself but she is also hurting Jace by not talking to him. It’s made pretty obvious by not only the subtext of this passage but by Clary’s previous behavior in the last chapter, that this is only an act to make her look selfless. She’s blaming herself, but she is not blaming herself for the right reasons.
Clary is blaming herself for Simon’s turning into a vampire (and rightly so because she selfishly has chosen that life for him), but she doesn’t care that she never, not once, considered Simon’s feelings about turning into a vampire. She should also blame hersefor bringing him into the shadow world without ever thinking about the consequences and what that might eventually mean to Simon. She should feel sorry, that while Raphael was burying Simon only a few feet away, that she was still angsting over her forbidden love for her brother.
Does Clary even at once consider what I just discussed about her shitty behavior? Does she ever confront it and try to make things as right as she can possibly can? No! So all of this fake selfless bullshit and quite frankly she can shove it up her ass!
And as for Clare, this is why all of your character arcs and subplots fall flat because you are dedicating every spare word on Clary and Jace’s ‘forbidden love’.
Melissa’s comments: Seriously Clary’s actions are hurting everyone. She don’t recognise what she did to Simon. How she treated him and didn’t even notice any changes about him while he was struggling to avoid turning. She didn’t notice anything different, and this is supposed to be her best friend and I think the signs were obvious but she was too busy angsting over Jace and talking about how love doesn’t give you any choices.
Fuck you Clare with that line cause seriously, you always have a choice. They may not be nice choices to have to make but they are there for you to take. This obsession with Jace is not love, it is an obsession. He’s supposed to be your brother, accept this and move on with your life. Don’t play with the feelings of the people who you are supposed to love. That is a horribly manipulative thing to do to any one and it makes you look like a sociopath or that you are prostituting yourself emotionally to feel valid.