This is just… so gross. I know people who are grieving often blame themselves for their loved one’s death. However, this feels like she’s just badly acting out a scene instead of true grieving. Again, there is no real emotion here. My editor Mel, summed this up perfectly last week: “it was like she was checking off things off a list that she had to do in this type of situation.” It doesn’t even feel like she’s shocked, feeling grief, or just being numb. In reality, it’s just Clary checking off those pesky items off her list.
Back to Clary blaming herself and Jace for Simon committing suicide. I call bullshit. No, I’m not saying that everyone who commits suicide is a selfish asshole. But in this instance? Yes, it was a purely selfish act. Simon didn’t care about how both his mother, and sister would be devastated if something happened to him. How Eric and the rest of his friends might have felt if he died. No, it was all about how Clary didn’t love him anymore, so he committed suicide.
This was an extreme reaction to an ordinary occurrence. Every day someone gets their heart broken and they move on eventually, for the most part. When my first love broke up with me, all I did was cry a lot and listen to emo music. Breakups are just a part of life, and everyone just deals with it, and eventually move on. But no, that was not good enough for Simon Lewis. Simon just couldn’t live without Clary, so he committed suicide. Which, I have to say that is a completely fucked up message to give to tweens and teens. Clare is basically giving the message, “It’s better to commit suicide than to be alone.”